Hindsight:
Many times
because of the shock of learning TTATT, a person loses it. You want to scream
and tell the whole world that the Watchtower is a big lie. Your first concern
is those you love. You want to save your spouse, your children, your parents.
But you
blurt out and say the wrong things at the wrong time. You can’t seem to control
your emotions. And you can’t control your anger. You start demonizing the
Organization. You start calling them Hypocrites’, the evil slave, the Devil---
without realizing that you just started scaring your wife, your husband, your
parents, and your children are crying.
In their mind
you have somehow been caught by the devil. In their mind you have disobeyed the
Governing Body and have looked at the internet.
You tell
them what you read about the Watchtower. They ask you, “Where did you read this?”
You answer, “The internet.” You just confirmed their
worst fear. You are becoming an apostate.
They call
the elders, the parents, the friends and they all rally against you. You start
slowing down in field service. The loyal JW friends start scaring your family. They say, “The
next thing will be the meetings and after that the truth.”
Sure enough the
more you learn about TTATT, the more you are convinced that you cannot go out
in service anymore. You keep reading more about the Watchtower, and you finally
get to the point where you just can’t go to the meetings any more.
And because
one took these steps, the results in many cases, have been that many have not
talked to parents for decades. Some have not talked to children for years. And
some lost their marriage partners forever.
I have no doubt
that if I knew back then what I know now; I could have saved my wife.
Now that you understand what is involved in learning TTATT and leaving
the Watchtower, what would you do different.
This is
advice for new JWs lurking the site.